Don't be afraid of making mistakes

"To live a creative life we must lose our fear of being wrong"---Joseph Chilton Pearce
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But i came to realise what i was afraid of  is not being wrong , but i was afraid the result is unknown, unpredictable, because no one have ever tried it before.
There is no reliable 'data' to research. No result to refer. Means there is a possibility of going to the "wrong" area.....if there is one.

 To me......this too "unsafe" to try.

Perhaps this is my personality problem.
"i" am actually operated by some kind of program of the past. Through my memory, i imitate everything i can recall. How my parents, my family, my friends react to something, slowly and surely,would become "me"
Not to say it's no good, but i didn't created that program, i just mimic from someone else, so it's not very original. I was born with originality, but slowly lose it as i grow.

And when i encounter something new, i realize i fail to proses the new data and fail to give respond. I cannot find any data from the past because this has never happen before.And again i observe how other people react to it and imitate.Perhaps i have never trust my gut, and i have never show anything that was my real feelings inside. My reactions are all programmed. They only come out if i have thought of it, programmed it, think that it is relevant. I filtered every outcome.

Normally, i would not step out of my comfort zone if there is a choice. In other words, i fear changes. Of course i know that i can change with it. But changing just because something has change  or changing with a reason is just like flowing water.....it will bring me away from my route! Will i still arrive at the destination i desire?
Guess i'm the type to stick to myself, even thought every other thing has change.
I'm really slow in realizing the need to change.

I seat in the same place every time on my school bus. Not really because i liked the view or something. Just because i was use to it. Getting used to something...is like creating a comfort zone. I feel reluctant to get out once i created that zone.

I do not fear being wrong.....but i fear uncertainties.

Over the years, i have developed a way of reading people, trying to get what they think and their possible actions, so that when they do it someday, i will not feel surprise.
Nothing is unexpected. Everything is under control and that's my aim. 

I really hate uncertainties.= =
How do i gain control over uncertain circumstances ?