今天是人日

不管我长得多大，变得多强，在你们的眼里，
我始终一样。

每年新年，我和妹妹都负责布置家里外，有时会比较下心思，有时会抱怨。
于是每年都是用旧红包封，剪剪贴贴。这个朴素环保谦虚的方法，就可以为家里增添几分新年气氛。
简单又实际的设计，小小的挂在小小的树上，在小小的家门口，静静聆听小小的人们心灵对话。
其实是很矛盾的。想要证明自己有能力，让你们不要担心，但是如果可以也是想不负责任，不去努力，只是一味的接受你们的爱和保护。
所以，你们越照顾我，我就越不可能成长。在你们身边，很幸福，所以不需要成长，不需要变强。我可以一直依赖，而且你们也愿意。

然而，谁都想变强。
可是变强了就是一味着不能继续依赖你们。所以，真的要离开才可以吗？因为我有了自己想要的东西，想要冒险，去外面飞翔，因为这些梦想…………我不得不孤单？
就因为我有了自我，不再是以前的我，不再是听话，你们说什么都会毫不犹豫的认同的那个我。我想我确实变成了[固体]，固执、不再随意接纳，不再是[不管怎样都可以融合的形状]。
离开了，就表示会受伤，会挫折，会彷徨，到底下一步怎么做。自己想办法去过生活。

果然，放弃自己已经有的，去重新开始，是多么难的事。
但是我几乎是有了决定的。
其实答案已经明显了。在这个时候，我应该做的事情，我已经明白了。
我必须变强。

如果有一天我成为了某个地位甚高的设计师（众：想得美吧你），我想每逢新年我能做的也只是跟现在一样的，剪贴旧红包封。
因为没有比这个更适合的方法。
没有比这个更适合我的位置。
原来能力并不能跟爱的能力达成正比。

因为能力可以轻易的衡量。
而爱，始终是爱。从开始到结束，不是理所当然，但也不会轻易改变。更不会，因为能力而改变。

或许爱起来很难。
但不去爱，就更难。

对自己负责任，也是对家人负责任的一个方法吧？
我是去翱翔，但也是永远属于你们。


我们会再次跨步吧？
就像曾经的第一次
就算我们已经经遗忘
如何走路
甚至认为自己已经没有那种能力
但，我们会
再次跨步

向前

是你们的爱让梦想有了可能性。

飞马 ……你的寂寞就是我的寂寞

飞马并没有失踪。
离开的人，是你，育婵。

但是，我回来了。
我们
一起

在一起

从新来过好吗？

我爱你^^

再也不会离开你了…………

这些日子辛苦你了，对不起…………*抱

Follow your master

It's been so long since i felt like these few days, i can't even remember.
Anyway, any of you who don't like manga and anime can just skip this post.Wahaha~
Well, it's been a long time until i felt like i was taught by a manga again.
Or perhaps i should say that, since i found a manga worth "following"again.

When i was in primary school i was so shy and quite, i barely have any friends.
Despite this situation, i was not alone, cos everyday i was with Doraemon.
Through Nobita and Doraemon, i learned the means of true friendship even though i have no real experience.
Through Shin Chan, understand family love and humour, although not all families work that way.
But reading a manga, is like experiencing a totally different life and discover a totally different self.

The manga i was deeply stuck into recently is Nurarihyon no Mago (译：滑头鬼之孙）
i guess what reli matters when reading a manga is not really the manga itself, but the thoughts seeds that begin to grow in your mind. It a reli well done manga with all the action and stuff, but the world view of the manga was the most fascinating~
But i came to realise that the youkai(译：妖怪）world was not much different from our real world, if not being harder to survive.
There are so many types of youkai, perhaps even countless, but the youkai does not seem to bothered by the differences in each other, instead they actually enjoy and appreciate the power of each other's unique ability, no matter strong or weak. Compared to human, which is of only one human race and just 5 major ethnicity,but still fighting each other for something call skin colour. This make me humblely respect the youkais. Or perhaps it is really the problem of the leader.


It is said that a youkai is born from the emotion of humans. Mostly from fear, but also from blessings, jealousy and many other emotions.Well, this is the part that makes the story quite interesting too.After all, isn't it interesting if what we thought everyday could really create an existence of something?

And not to mention, the leader of a hundred youkai sure is cool *fan girl screams*
How i would like to have such kind of master too....surely i don't mind fighting to death.Ahaha~
Spontaneous and unpredictable, but if there is must to fight, it is not to insult others or to mean that only one of the black or white could exist, instead, fight to find a means of existence that is suitable for both.


In real life....i also had many masters.
Now i think of it, my first masters are my parents.
And then my sifu.
But now myself.


I guess have found a new master to follow, to make a role model.
<3 A virtual character......aha. It might sound silly, but why am i so happy? XDDDD

I'll follow you forever master! >w< 

The symbols on the back is to represent  the "burden" being carried by leader. It is actually the prove of  master of a hundred youkai.

matoi is the fear of a leader combine with another youkai (mostly  one of his clan members/friends)

So carefree is this leader=w=

Nurarihyon(grandfather,youkai) and Nura rikuo (grandson,quater-youkai)

I greatly recommend this manga to all action lovers <3
btw, i fall in love with this drawing style too. Who would thought rough lines(dry brush?) could be so beautiful~~fufufu~~